Siti Hazi

iman kita2 ni an ada naik ada turun dia, kecuali golongan yg maksum tu. lambat-lambatkan solat, kurang baca quran, kurang berdoa. so nampak r, iman aku dlm proses penurunan. sembang r tak rasa pape, serabut alam siyotttt. dapat rasa r, aku cam tak ikhlas buat pape. semalam, ada arabic oral, aku supposedly could speak much better than i did, but.. yeah, i didnt struggle that much. similar to ict's quiz, I didnt answer.. well. sbb aku tak well-prepared pun so cane nak did well ye dak, zZz sigh.. esok ada kuiz BRM, aku harap sangat2 la aku bole kuatkan diri untuk prepare habis-habisan and jawab sedaya upaya aku, bkn sekadar jawab cincai. mmg mak ayah aku hantar aku gi sini untuk watlek watpis punnnn zZz selalu sebenarnya terfikir sampai bila nak jadi mcmni¿ apa sbnrnya matlamat hidup aku¿ aku belajar ni untuk apa¿ takkan aku nak go with the flow sampai bebila¿ padahal, matlamat and final destination kita semua adalah akhirah. aku tau tu, dan aku masih berada di comfort zo

so, kelmarin (isnin), my classmates and I were being told that our BTQ's lecturer will not be here on this Wednesday and Thursday (hari-hari yang ada BTQ) and he, the lecturer, asked us to do our presentation, tonight and it somehow gave my goosebumps as the lecturer seems so demand on professional-like presentation. goosebump2 pun prepare at eleventh hour gak. aku prepared right few hours before the presentation. supoh setereh mak noks. dalam pukul 5 lebih (ptg la) macam tu. malam tu, dah sampai kelas, waktu tu tak ramai org lagi. sir tanya "can we start now?"  "yes yes" my grpmate jawab. aku dengan spoiler agak menggelupur jugak lah.  I told her I havent prepared well yet, but I didnt really care about being the first group sbb lagi awal, lagi lega. but the problem was, i didn't memorize any of what Ive written on my notes and all the contents were scattered around like I'm such an unorganized person, because I didn't know what is the to