I wish..

I can just disappear..  

So here I am.. again. Feeling down.. again. You know how sh*tty it feels. To be at the lowest point of your life. Currently, I'm at mine.

There are so many things that I keep inside. I am furious. I am frustrated. I am disappointed. I am tired. I am sad. But there's literally no one that I can talk to cuz it involves aib. Suppressing all those feelings all alone.

I just want to have a good life so that I can be happy. So that I can be a great wife and mother.

Ya muqallib al qulubana tsabbit qulubana ala dinik..

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