Esok submission for rp and now kau baru nak confirmkan topic. Kau bia betul haziyah? Dont repeat this goddamn thing in the future for your own sake. Dont.
I can just disappear.. So here I am.. again. Feeling down.. again. You know how sh*tty it feels. To be at the lowest point of your life. Currently, I'm at mine. There are so many things that I keep inside. I am furious. I am frustrated. I am disappointed. I am tired. I am sad. But there's literally no one that I can talk to cuz it involves aib. Suppressing all those feelings all alone. I just want to have a good life so that I can be happy. So that I can be a great wife and mother. Ya muqallib al qulubana tsabbit qulubana ala dinik..
i am the one of them. sukanya. heheheheheh suka your head. hati gila gabra, whenever perkataan 'result' pop out in my mind in anywhere. k lantak pi dulu. so now.. just wanna share what beneficial things (for me) I do during this longggggg break. helping my mother with her biz yeah, she's saleswoman, so it's an advantage for me to extricate myself from the lifelessness by just staying in this house makan tido makan tido katanya. not much but a bit lah. watch Running Man this, functioning as anti-aging bcs it usually makes me LOL and grinning like rotten shellfish. beneficial beneficial. lessen ketongkangpecahan of my room yeah.. the bookshelf especially. bcs, i just done one of the biggest exams of my life. have to kumpul la the books which can be used, to be tossed, and to be donated to those who deem necessary. then, tidy up the full-of-scattered-garments-also-plastic-bags-gift-wrappers wardrobe. not only able to improve my fitness but also helps me to go...
Oh hye. I'm still alive. It's just that my heart is not totally alive. You know how that feels when you know something that you shouldn't have known, you saw something that you shouldn't have seen... consecutively. Not kool, obviously. Quirky. Faithful. Stronger. Sarcastic. Independent. Come back when these traits are fully embedded in me again. Im fvcked up.
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