Idk. I just.. dk. Ive prepared lots, but i presented little. I jot down notes n si.. but yknow. I spoke little. Compared to my mate. She answered most of the qstions n i was krik krik n i noticed bizzare expression of the spectators. N the saddest thing is when your closest frenz gave you the lowest points, compared to others. Outta sudden i reminisced a part of three idiots when Farhan said, "it is sad when your friend failed more than u, but it is more sad when your friend excelled but you failed." Tmrw we'll be presenting on pragmatics, thus, i want to give my best n be much more explicit. On mon, ill present bout dickens. I felt quite inferior as the prev presenters had done with great effort. They were attractive. Their slides are attractive. Within 5 mins. Im afraid i couldnt. It becomes more n more sad when you alrdy have scrpt wrtg, few research pprs, presentations to be done n u gotta write a short story asap too. Im not gonna go anywhr i thnk. I thnk ...
I can just disappear.. So here I am.. again. Feeling down.. again. You know how sh*tty it feels. To be at the lowest point of your life. Currently, I'm at mine. There are so many things that I keep inside. I am furious. I am frustrated. I am disappointed. I am tired. I am sad. But there's literally no one that I can talk to cuz it involves aib. Suppressing all those feelings all alone. I just want to have a good life so that I can be happy. So that I can be a great wife and mother. Ya muqallib al qulubana tsabbit qulubana ala dinik..
so PKPB dilanjutkan ke 9 Jun. aku kat KL. WFH. and boss aku kata better stick at one place and don't go home, hence I'm here. tbh, I love staying alone. I can do whatever I want. I have roommate but mostly buat hal masing-masing. but kalau raya, aku tak pernah la tak balik raya. aku mesti raya dgn mak ayah. I know how they feel at this rate, they miss me loads to the extent they want to merentas negeri and want me to go home right at this second. btw, I hate my job a lot since aku menyampah nak melayan customer so aku banyak ambil annual leave, lagi pun company memang galakkan ambik cuti sekarang, since senang nak approve berbanding sebelum covid. so aku ambik la cuti. so aku selalu cuti. tapi pishang gak la bila dah tgk youtube, netflix, aku still pishang. aku main inai, mewarna. pastu aku lost. harini hari ketiga aku off, esok dah kerja. harini jugak la aku baru teringat aku ada blog. lels. actually banyak benda nak citer. nanti ah.aku...
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